For those interested, my work phone number and address have changed…. If you care about this information, just ask for it (or look in the CSH Member Profiles (if you are a member of CSH). Apparently, my old number will forward you to the new main number… If this happens, be nice to Celina. :)

Physical or Psychological? I really don’t know… I wouldn’t say that my body is collapsing or anything, but I have felt better in my life… I go for awhile telling myself that everything is okay in the world, and then I swing in the other direction… I guess this is depression, and I guess I will get out of it.. I some breath counting today, and will probably do so again before bed… Trite? Probably, but piss off, it works for me…

Today was the first day of work in the new digs, and it wen’t pretty well… I miscalculated some times, and I missed the bus I was hoping to catch, and I had to wait 30 minutes for the next one.. Luckily, my arrival at work isn’t on any kind of schedule… I did alot of work today helping the company settle in, and also spent a few hours (maybe more than a few) killing an annoying (but not fatal) bug. See, if you have used the reader (which as faithful followers of my cult should have done some time ago), you know that you can add various types of annotations to each page of your book (Highlights, Stickynotes, and Bookmarks/dogears). Well, there is a little dropdown doohickey underneath the buttons to make these annotations that tell you what pages you have annotations on… If you had lots of annotated pages, it would take forever (20+ seconds) for the dropdown to appear the first time (since it sorted and built the list). I moved the sorting to the server (Omar actually did it for me), and cleaned up some of the code on the client to do better handling of inserting new annotations into the list, etc. I am glad that codebase is going away soon…

I guess I am gonna go to bed or something, even though I am not really tired… Perhaps I will just play a video game for awhile (the new Wolfenstein Test sounds good right about now)..

Watching Letterman, the first broadcast since Tuesday, and his first guest was Dan Rather…. I have watched the news throughout my life, whether by choice or parental television override… I can’t remember a single time when Dan showed emotion like he did tonight.. For him to break down twice, man…. It drove all of this just a bit deeper…

Went to the Coolidge Corner Theater tonight and saw a screening of " Olympic Greasy Watermelon", a short film that was surprisingly funny… Frankie’s brother had a part in the production, and she knew some of the other people involved as well. The soundtrack was pretty good and the film was very funny… Hopefully it gets picked up for distribution by someone…

Just before that show started, I noticed that they were showing " The Princess Bride" at midnight… And since I am a sucker for that movie, I had to stick around… It was a brand new 35mm print, which rocked as well…

Bed Now

I decided to come into work today to set up my workstation so I wouldn’t have to do it on Monday. It was also a good way for me to get my bearing here in Kendall…. The new building rules, even if our space in it is really small… I have never worked in a tall building before, and after Tuesday’s events, it makes me nervous doing so now… But the view from the 12th floor is pretty sweet, and lots of people in the area think that this building is the place to be, apparently, so I guess it could be worse.

I saw Wesley Willis perform last night at T.T. the Bear’s Place (worst name ever). It was a ton of fun, and for the first time in my life I scalped a ticket. Apparently, the show sold out, and when I found out, I offered my extra ticket to the first person with 10 bucks (they cost me 10.50, so I wasn’t being evil or anything). One girl wanted to pick up my ticket, but unfortunately, I couldn’t break a 20. The guy behind her offered me \$20, so I took it… Pretty sweet. Wesley’s opening act, Grand Buffet, was funny, even if it was only one out of two of the members of the band.. :) All in all it was a lot of fun, but I also learned that Wesley Willis fans are complete losers…

I finally got to talk to phyber today, which was nice… I haven’t talked to her much this week, she has been really busy at work trying to clean up the mess those terrorists made within her company…

Work has been very non-productive this week, but I did overcome some major hurdles in my XUL work, and hopefully our old UI will be completely imitated under XUL by Monday or Tuesday… Tomorrow we won’t be working much because we begin our office move. I guess we will see how that goes. :)

I’m exhausted, and I think I wanna go to bed… l8r

I posted a picture I had taken back in 1996 on the wall near my desk. It is from Hudson St. in Jersey City, facing the river. This is the skyline that I want to remember, but unfortunately, I feel that I will instead remember the skyline of yesterday in its place. In this photo, the WTC stands proud… an American flag stands, on the NJ side of the river, at full mast…

Time to get to work… and on with life.

I have always been very afraid to give blood…. I always knew it was something I should do, but I always had amazing difficulty with the notion. Today’s events caused me to want to finally get past these fears once and for all… Unfortunately, however, it looks as if I am going to have to wait a few days… The local blood bank told me that they are running way beyond capacity (in terms of not having enough personnel/resources…. they still desparately need blood). So I am going to keep watching the news and checking up with them, and I am going to bite the bullet and donate blood…

I tried to give blood long ago, but I freaked the hell out when they put the needle in my arm and I saw my blood entering the bag, I demanded that they stop and fainted soon after they did… It’s strange, I don’t like needles, but I am not really afraid of them. And I have seen copious amounts of blood before (at accidents, etc), but I really think it is the fact that the bag is filling with MY blood that has always been the problem for me.

Time to get past that childish fear… Too bad it took a national tragedy to convince me to do so….

should i go home?

Two planes hit the World Trade Center, a single plane into the Pentagon, and apparently there are fires at the State Dept. also.

Apparently there has just been an explosion in the second tower of the WTC and part of it has collapsed. The Sears Tower is also being evacuated.