Sean, where've ya been?

Ok, enough people have finally pestered me about not updating “for real” in a week or more, so here it goes. Truth be told, I’ve been avoiding this update for awhile now out of some childish “if I don’t admit to it, it won’t happen” impulse.

I am moving back to Hopatcong to live with my parents. It has been 11 months (almost to the day) since I lost my job, and in that time I have burned through my savings, ran up credit, and still gotten no closer to a job other than a few empty promises from places I’ve interviewed. I have always been pretty optimistic, and throughout this whole ordeal I have done my best to put on a strong face. Well, my “strong face” reserves have pretty much been completely used up.

So I am turning tail and going home to mommy and daddy. Don’t get me wrong, I love my family, and will love being with them full time again. But there is something extremely humbling about not being able to support yourself after doing so for more than 2 years… As cool as it will be to be home again, I’d much rather be doing so under different circumstances. Not to mention that I will be leaving lots of good friends behind here, not to mention a wonderful girlfriend. Corinna has been crucial to my keeping sane over the past 6 or 7 months. She’s the biggest reason it hurts to leave this area, but this is a temporary move. And weekend visits do wonders for one’s sanity and happiness.

So I will begin looking for work in NJ soon, but I still hope to find a job in Boston, even if that means as I unpack the last box in NJ I get a job up here again and have to turn right back around. In fact, I wouldn’t be the least bit surprised if that is what is destined for me. Ideally, I’ll find a job here in Boston quickly and be able to come back. But second to that, I find a good-paying job in NJ, pay off my debt and restore my savings while living with the folks, and then move back here (with a job).

I’m playing poker tonight with the boys, and tomorrow I am driving back to NJ for a few days to see my sick doggie. I bought some boxes today so I could take a small load of stuff with me as well. I have known about this trip to NJ for a week or so now, yet I managed to put off buying boxes until today, probably for the same infantile reasons I put off this journal update.